Understanding the Flipside
There's nothing quite as humbling as seeing things from the other side of the fence, only to realize how very wrong you were. Besides feeling like a first class asshole, I'm actually scared for my life. Not because of the gift I received, but because if someone could find me to help me, someone could also find me to kill me.
It's probably a good thing that my conversation with Nate had been over the phone. Otherwise it might have come to blows. And then where would that put me? I think that's what freaks me out the most, how close I could have come today, just by dealing with my friends.
For people that think they know what they're talking about, they don't seem to know shit. Are they trying to get me all worked up? Are they trying to force a change? From the way Kavin was talking, it would be such a good excuse to put a bullet in my brain. Nate... I don't know what to do about him. I don't know how to guarantee that he won't tell anyone else. What if he's already done so? What if there are more hunters? And how do I not tell people Kavin's secret?
Gut instinct says I should. Gut instinct says I should let Dean know, and Drea, and everyone I know that might be in danger of a hunter coming after them. Except I've known Kavin for two years and he's never hurt a friend of mine... that I know of. And there's the thing: I don't know what he's capable of. He said he doesn't kill around here, but all that means is that he'd kill me if I lived elsewhere. If he didn't know me. He already sees me as a monster, even while he knows it's still me. If he never knew me, he'd have no problem getting rid of me.
Nate still seems like the bigger threat. He could tell anyone. He could tell a hunter that won't be held back like Kavin is. He could have told someone who got word to the guy that gave me the gift... except I don't think that's what happened.
Best guess is that the gift if from whomever has the fliers up. I've got the number, just in case I need to use it, but if I'm wrong, I really don't wanna alert a hunter to my situation. I wish I could tell whomever gave it to me thank you, though, since it would have taken me a lot longer to figure some of this stuff out, even with the help of my friends. So, thanks, whomever you are...
It's late now, and I want to sleep. I can't. I need to invest in some ear plugs.
