The women in my life
Question: When the hell did my life get so complicated?
Answer: Two weeks ago, tops.
Where to start? With Kaysen – these days everything starts with Kaysen. She was at the party on Sunday. And got into a fight – which was started by Chance Reed. Who she was with.
God, can I just say how fucking twitchy it makes me that she’s apparently hanging out with a senior with Chance’s reputation (okay, I’d be twitchy if she was with any male senior that wasn’t Isaac, but Chance makes things a million times worse!). What the hell does he want with her anyway? I mean, really? She’s only sixteen dammit. If I find out that he’s going off any of those fucking rumours that go around about her, I will rip his head off.
In the meantime, Isaac and I have decided to go round there and have a little ‘talk’ with him. I’m going to let Isaac do most of the talking – what with him having a legitimate reason for concern. That’s the plan anyway.
Have I mentioned the being twitchy? I don’t like this. I have such a bad feeling about this.
Chance Reed. Dammit! Kaysen – you are stupid. Totally insanely stupid.
And my problem. Fuck.
And then there’s Leija. My girlfriend. … How did that happen? I mean, really, not upset about it at all, but still – DAMN. How the… Okay, so I admit it, maybe there is something in this random dating gig after all. Or maybe I just got lucky. Either way…
I’m worried about her though. She disappeared from the party on Sunday night, like in the middle of a conversation, just getting up to kissing her and bam! She’s gone. Run off.
She’s says it’s not me and actually, I believe her in that. If it was me, then she’s ten types of insane. I’m not going to angst over something stupid that I know isn’t true.
But there’s definitely something going on. She asked me not to ask about it, said she couldn’t tell me. And the state she was in when I went round there yesterday…
I wish she‘d talk to me about this. She said if I knew I’d think she was crazy. I’m not so sure that I would. But how could I push her when I know that I have think in my life that I really can’t talk about either?
I can’t let it drop, I just can’t – I’m worried about her. Maybe I can work up to getting her to trust me on the ‘not crazy’ stuff. There are some things I can’t say, but I could tell her about the magic. That’s not really connected to everything else and it’d be a way in to the ‘there are other things in heaven and earth’ topic.
I’ll think of something though.
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